Archive for April, 2014

Insomniac

Posted in Poetry with tags , , , , , , , , , on April 27, 2014 by bigtuna185

Eyelids drooping low,
My body thirsts for relief;
My heart seeks to live.

Elizabethan

Posted in Poetry with tags , , , , , , , , , , , on April 15, 2014 by bigtuna185

I want to write you bad poetry
Not because you don’t deserve good words
Nor because I lack the capability to do it
Or that you are not inspiring enough to stand as my muse
But when I was writing poorly,
I was feeling purely.

I want to go back to my teenage years
Ruled by emotion, steered by desire
And let passion dictate my actions
Not yet jaded by experience
Still fresh to receive and send out
Signals of admiration
Devoted enough to sacrifice it all
For a smile
A kiss
An embrace
A sense of being wanted

I want to stay up until one in the morning
Thinking of synonymous phrases to let you know
I care, and I care deeply
Although it’s three in the morning back home
And two in the morning where you are
I suppose I’ve figured out a way to travel back in time after all
For when I finally come to you
It will be like journeying to the past
And getting another chance for something great.

Unfortunately there have been others who have received
This scribbled and scrawled gift that
I painstakingly scratched out
They did not deserve it, but they needed it
Through necessity I flourished
Their pain was inflicted upon me
And thus I bled on the page
Crafted my soul into words
And it became something more beautiful than I ever dreamed of
But it hurt so much to amputate that part out of me

This seems different though
You seem different
Such an interesting dynamic between the two of us
You are distant, yet we are close
Connected more in mind and spirit than in body
There will be those who will cry out that it’s wrong
That it’s weird
That it’s not normal
That it can’t end well
But I wave away those projections and cast forth my own

This is different, yet it feels so familiar.